HEALING 1

My healing from anxiety took many forms.

At my lowest I tried anything. Everything. That is, whatever I was ready for at each given moment.

At first, I was surfing the Internet to find calming foods. There had to be foods that would give an instant feeling of calm? Right? After all there are foods that exacerbate the problem. Like coffee (or other forms of caffeine) which agitated me more than I was already. As much as I dislike Chamomile tea, every site spoke of its calming benefits. That became my drink of choice. The more anxious I was, the more Chamomile I downed.

Well it was during this researching that I came upon the site Calm Clinic. Reading what they had to say about diet, I was captured by and tempted by the blue print: "Take our 7 minute anxiety quiz." I was desperate. I needed a quick fix now! I wanted my anxiety to be over like yesterday. I no longer wanted neither the butterflies nor the panic attacks. I would have made a willing guinea pig for any sale's pitch, any experiment. So, yup! I caved. I clicked the blue print and did the test scoring a significantly high anxiety level. No surprise there. One thing led to another and before I knew it, I signed up for (and paid for it too!) a 4 week program: New Life With Cool, Calm and Collected.

The promise: you will be fully recovered if you ENGAGE in the program, TAKE the methods, DO the exercises, USE what you're going to learn. If you do all this, and I am always an eager student, "your panic attacks will VANISH, your anxiety and worry STOP and your confidence and self-esteem SOAR."

 I was sold! How could I not be pleased that this program would do this for me.

After 4 weeks nothing sunk in. Nothing. My mind was not ready, nor did it know how to register what I was learning. Actually, I was not learning. I simply listened, read and wrote. I wondered why following the program in its entirety, nothing changed. My anxiety still plagued me. Even more so. I kept resisting and the more I resisted, the deeper my anxiety went.

The caveat to this program, for me at any rate: you have to be ready. Emotionally. Mentally. Physically. Intellectually. Clearly nothing was working because NOTHING was working.

Healing.

Published By: Valdone's Leaf